LyricsFrom the album Better Alone (Deluxe)

I Messed Up Li Juan Lyrics

Released October 15, 2020
Length 3:36
Explicit

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Lyrics

I messed up Li Juan I messed up Li Juan I messed up Li Juan

I had a startup We had to breakup I had to gamble And I just lost all my stuff

Look at the sunny day There's no sunny day I had to kill to play Don't show him my ways

I was a kid that day She's like where's my pay I had to rob that day I'm like where's the safe

I messed up Li Juan I messed up Li Juan

Look at the sunny day There's no sunny day I had to rob that day Don't show him my ways I was a kid that day ************ underpaid I made a thousand a day Only to give it away Mommy and daddy's away I went to school for faith I had to put on glasses Never went to classes

I messed up Li Juan I messed up Li Juan

The moment I turned eighteen Let's get the gamble, it's struggle Went back to water and beans Started hiding in my bubble King and the queen was a dream Only to see our dream rubble Never go back to eighteen Poppy the heart, the chain Mixing it up with lean Only in Clyde the scene Western checks will leak Everything you took 3 a.m. in the book Had the whole world give looks Had the whole world give looks Had the whole world give looks

I messed up Li Juan I messed up Li Juan I messed up Li Juan I messed up Li Juan I messed up Li Juan

Everything I did Look at the book Everything I did 3 a.m. in the book Had the whole world give looks Had the whole world give looks Had the whole world give looks

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Behind the song

A sunny day appears for a moment, then the words take it away. There is no sunshine here, just a startup, a breakup, and a gamble that ends with everything lost. Money keeps changing hands, but nothing seems to stay. Even making a thousand a day leads back to giving it all away. The repeated admission of messing up Li Juan sits in the middle of it all, simple enough to say but harder to explain.

On Better Alone (Deluxe), this song brings together unpaid work, missed classes, absent parents, and dreams that have fallen apart. Water and beans replace the dream of a king and queen, while hiding in a bubble offers a small place to retreat. There are darker pieces too: robbery, threats, and things that must not be shown. By the end, a book and three in the morning keep returning, alongside the feeling of the whole world looking. The admission comes back again and again, but the full story stays just out of reach.